Deep Breath...

The amount of responsibilities I take on are ridiculous. Most of the time I'm aware, but roll with it because, well what else am I gonna do? Short of closing up shop and getting a job at Wal-Mart (blah!) But today is one of those days where I just feel so completely overwhelmed. Before noon I've been to the eye doctor, written out bills, balanced out my checkbook, responded to emails, packaged and delivered products, dealt with customers in person and on the phone, replaced inventory on the floor, cleaned up behind the counter, made breakfast and lunch, called Holly about plans for Thursday, Chad's Aunt for plans on Friday, my sister in-law about Saturday, made a station to promote the neighbor's restaurant and finished cutting and labeling matts I had started before leaving here yesterday. My husband came in for lunch about an hour ago and I asked what he's done today & was told he's been LOOKING at sticks out back and deciding if he needs to run the kiln....... Are you freaking kidding me?!?!? I love the guy to pieces but........ REALLY?

Now I know I take on too much by myself. I want to cater to him and my life, as it is, was made to fulfill his dreams. But I can't tell you how frustrating it is when I have 900 things in my head and he has one. I'm already thinking about having to call the groomer (who was closed on Monday when I took the dogs out) to set up an appointment, cleaning finger and nose prints off the windows, stopping at the store on the way home to pick up a few things for dinner, the horrendous state my living room is in right now that I'll be cleaning up when we get home, the laundry I haven't had a chance to finish and the lady looking for wagon wheels that will be calling around 6 for me to tell her I've searched everywhere and she's on her own.......... I just HAD to sit down and write. My chest has gotten tight and my thoughts are getting jumbled and my hands starting to shake.. if this blog has done nothing for me except give me an out, I'm totally at peace with that. I don't care if no one reads it. (though I know my Momma is. Hi Mom!) It's like my new diary and gives me an opportunity to just let my thoughts flow and my mind refocus and my entire being take a much needed deep breath............... now back to work!

xx